So it's 3am on Thursday and thunder has just started rumbling in the sky. Kinda cool too, since i haven't gone to sleep, i've just stayed up on my comp, the first question should be why have i not closed my laptop and gotten sleep. The answer? The same reason i stayed up this late yesterday, because i haven't done anything truly physically exhausting so i'm not actually 'tired'.
ooo, i just saw white light flicker over the pantry doors, so there's lightning out which means a good storm is rolling in. I do love storms, and rain, and the sound of thunder. Makes me think back to when i was a little kid, how Dad and i would pull out a chair or two and sit on the edge of the garage, just out of the rain, and watch the lightning.
But it would seem that i forgot that the two 4-legged denizens of the household have a problem with storms, especially these kinds - the ones that have large claps of thunder. Lucky (red tabby with a thyroid problem (in other words she's fat)) and Ozzy (my Australian Shepherd nephew). Lucky i already grabbed trying to make a break for the upstairs where she would no doubt either go into Mom's room and hide behind the bed or go into Dad's room and hide under the bed. I instead opened the door to the basement where Beck resides and she went down there instead, given the option. But opening the door allows Ozzy to come up (he sleeps with his mom) which he has three times now because he's antsy. Poor puppy. I've hugged him each time and pet him to try and calm him. 2nd time he went back downstairs i heard Beck calling him so hopefully he'll be a little less distressed, but this storm is far from over, considering the flashes of lightning i keep seeing......
So anyway, i figure that since Monday made it officially a week since i came home from the hospital, i should analyze myself and see how i am.
Considering the nerve damage done to my upper body, my neck and shoulder are still mostly numb of feeling. The lead i feel in my right arm isn't so much lead as it feels like someone is constantly leaning on my right arm and won't get off. I can now clasp my hands behind my back but i can't raise my arms very high in that position yet.
I've had some fantastic headaches the past day or two, in which at one point it felt as if someone unseen force was just increasing pressure across the top of my head and face (like gravity was increasing on my hair or something). Mom thinks it could be a spinal fluid leak. (which Beck has shared with me that, when the surgeon has to plug the leak, she imagined him pulling the cork out of a bottle of wine then used the cork to plug the leak. Evidently he didn't cork the leak tight enough if it is what's causing the sharp headache) but Mom thinks it's due to my physical activites (which include playing with Charle daily and weeding where i can in the backyard). Ok, mowing two lawns may have been pushing it, but i feel so happy for cutting the lawn and getting that done. Maybe next i should try burning more of the wood pile. For the past few months i've been doing a lot of branch trimming and, thanks to Mom finding a metal fire pit on clearance at Wal-Mart, burning away a lot of twigs and branches that we can't burn in our own fireplace (such as pine. The soot from pine makes a mess of the chimney so we can't burn it in the hearth) but it's great for the fire pit. I don't think it would be to strenous of an activity, considering i had gathered a load of twigs and branches to burn back before all this medical stuff started happening, so all i gotta do is feed the fire and not get to pyromanic (which is likely to happen, it happens often when i start burning the scraps)
I've still got this strange pimply rash on the left side of my face. It's a major breakout, perhaps conncted to the strange bumps on my left arm, but whatever caused it, i want it to go away! Mom tells me (because she knows so much more than i do on things related to health) that stress could be the possible cause, that my body is reacting to everything thats been going on to it. I think it could be caused by how badly i was sweating that week in the hospital. I was sweating a lot, an increase in blood flow (i think) due ot the pain i was feeling and the morphine i was on. Whatever the cause, hopefully it'll clear up soon, just as the strange bumps on my left arm are slowly doing (so long as i diligently apply the steroid cream, and no, it dosen't seem to be making my arm any stronger. dang it, i'll never be able to throw a baseball like a major league pitcher!)
But other than those things, the small odds and ends, my balance is coming back nicely, and i'm walking around in my bare feet all over the place. I've gotten hooked on going barefooted as often as i can. Considering my circulation issues (and a while back the tension in my leg made it impossible for me to roll my foot for the natural way of walking) and after reading an article about the perks of going barefoot, i've been working at it. Such as walking on our road, which is pretty smooth, but the connecting neighborhood behind where we live has a much rougher pavement, which last year ended up tearing up some of my toes, but today Beck and I took Charle and Ozzy on a walk (i barefoot) and walking on that rougher road wasn't so bad as it once was, which tells me that my feet are indeed toughening, which is way cool in my opinion.
Now i'm starting to beginnings of another headache, but this one may be from actually needing sleep,and i'm finally starting to feel slightly tired so i think i'll end here and see if i can't get some sleep and add another blog in a few hours, when i wake up :)
and now it's 4am
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